As much as I am trying to not think about it... I can't stop thinking about it. It's that time of the month again. The list release from China. Tomorrow night, around 8pm, China will release the "list" of available children. I have a love/hate relationship with this time of month. Love it for the excitement and hope, hate it for the disappointment and let down.
Things have been different this month though. I can't really put my finger on it, its just been different. I sort of have a renewed sense of hope. Our agency said that the longest anyone has waited in the Waiting Child Program is a year and a half. Clearly, our family excluded because it's been 2 years for us. I know we can't be counted in the averages, but regardless - it's still been a long time. We have to be close, right?
In the past, some agencies have "manipulated" the system to match the young, minor needs kids unethically. Because of that, agencies that were doing things the right way, lost out on chances to match their families with young kids (0-2) or minor needs kids. It wasn't fair, but there wasn't much that could be done. If you happened to be with those particular agencies, then you got matched super quickly. While some families wait and wait for matches. Now don't get me wrong, I believe that Jesus has hand picked my daughter for me, so regardless of people abusing the system, if my daughter had of been ready, nothing would have stopped us from finding her. My point is it was an unfair advantage to the families with the agencies that were working ethically.
However, you can't continue to cheat the system and never get caught. Last month, my agency emailed and said that there have been some issues with the list and other agencies. They didn't go into specifics and they didn't share which agencies were at fault (which I totally respect the way they handled it. They never once said anything bad about another agency.). They merely shared that there were some issues but they have and will continue to do things ethically and were not involved with whatever happened. Anyway, I found out today that these agencies are on suspension from using the shared list. I don't know how long, but for sure for June.
All of that to say, that maybe now that the system is working the way it was intended again, the families that are waiting will find their children!
So if you are willing, will you please join us in prayer? This road has been long and so very hard. We are trying to be obedient to the calling that Jesus asked of us. Here are some specific requests if you would be willing:
1. That our baby girl, Willa is ON THAT LIST!
2. That her file would be accurate and up to date.
3. That when we see her face, we will know that she is the one we have been praying for and waiting on!
4. That no one else would be able to lock her file but America World for US!
5. She is being taken care of and is healthy while she waits.
6. The finances. Oh the finances. If she is indeed on the list, we will need $18,000+ in FOUR MONTHS (OK, that makes me physically nauseous).
If we get a call, I have to be honest, you all will probably hear me screaming. LOL. Please, please take a moment and lift our family up in prayer. None of this is possible without Jesus' favor and mercy.
Thank you! The next time I blog could be to sharing some good news!!